Still Amazed

Tell me how important automatic, semi-automatic, and assault rifles are for people to own in the 21st century. Go ahead, please, tell me
Here’s a list from Wikipedia of mass shootings in the US. Read it and then go back to the question above.
A
2010 ABB plant shootings
Alrosa Villa shootings
Appalachian School of Law shooting
2010 Appomattox shootings
Larry Gene Ashbrook
Atlantis Plastics shooting
1993 Aurora shooting
2012 Aurora shooting
2012 Azana Spa shootings
B
Bard College at Simon’s Rock shooting
Mark O. Barton
2016 shooting of Baton Rouge police officers
D.C. sniper attacks
Bethel Regional High School shooting
Binghamton shootings
William Ray Bonner shooting spree
Bronx-Lebanon Hospital attack
Carl Robert Brown
Brown’s Chicken massacre
Burnette Chapel shooting
C
California State University, Fullerton massacre
Camden massacre
Capitol Hill massacre
2007 Carnation murders
Carthage nursing home shooting
2016 Cascade Mall shooting
Chardon High School shooting
Charleston church shooting
2015 Chattanooga shootings
1993 shootings at CIA Headquarters
2016 Citronelle homicides
Clackamas Town Center shooting
Cleveland Elementary School shooting (San Diego)
Cleveland Elementary School shooting (Stockton)
2017 Clovis library shooting
2012 College Station, Texas shooting
2009 Collier Township shooting
Colorado Springs Planned Parenthood shooting
2007 Colorado YWAM and New Life shootings
Columbine High School massacre
2017 Congressional baseball shooting
Connecticut Lottery
2011 Copley Township shooting
Covina massacre
Crandon, Wisconsin shooting
Cupertino quarry shooting
D
Daingerfield church shooting
2016 shooting of Dallas police officers
Laurie Dann
Lynwood Drake
E
Edmond post office shooting
1997 Empire State Building shooting
2003 Ennis shooting
ESL shooting
F
1986 FBI Miami shootout
2009 Fort Hood shooting
2014 Fort Hood shooting
2017 Fort Lauderdale airport shooting
Fountain Valley massacre
Freeman High School shooting
FreightCar America shooting
2017 Fresno shootings
Frontier Middle School shooting
G
Geneva County massacre
1946 Georgia lynching
Golden Dragon massacre
Goleta postal facility shootings
2011 Grand Rapids mass murder
H
Hartford Distributors shooting
Heath High School shooting
2016 Hesston shooting
Hi-Fi murders
2013 Hialeah shooting
1965 Highway 101 sniper attack
1996 Honolulu hostage crisis
2015 Harris County, Texas shooting
I
2011 IHOP shooting
Indianapolis mass murder
2014 Isla Vista killings
K
2016 Kalamazoo shootings
Kansas City massacre
Kelayres massacre
Kirkwood City Council shooting
Knoxville Unitarian Universalist church shooting
L
2015 Lafayette shooting
2009 Lakewood shooting
Lane Bryant shooting
2017 Las Vegas Strip shooting
Lex Street massacre
Lindhurst High School shooting
Little Rock nightclub shooting
Lockheed Martin shooting
Lorenz-Sirloin Stockade murders
2002 Los Angeles International Airport shooting
2013 Los Angeles International Airport shooting
Los Angeles Jewish Community Center shooting
Luby’s shooting
M
Madison High School shooting
Marysville Pilchuck High School shooting
1993 Long Island Rail Road shooting
Saint Valentine’s Day Massacre
Utah prisoner of war massacre
2012 Minneapolis workplace shooting
2017 Mississippi shootings
Montgomery County, Pennsylvania shootings
2016 Mukilteo shooting
N
Northern Illinois University shooting
O
Oakland Elementary School shooting
Oikos University shooting
Old Salisbury Road shooting
Olean High School shooting
Orangeburg massacre
2016 Orlando nightclub shooting
2017 Orlando shooting
P
Palm Sunday massacre (homicide)
John Felton Parish
Pearcy murders
Pearl High School shooting
Penske shootings
2016 Pike County, Ohio, shootings
2009 shooting of Pittsburgh police officers
2017 Plano shooting
James Edward Pough
R
Ramon Salcido murder spree
Terry Ratzmann
Red Lake shootings
Will Reynolds
Rosemary Anderson High School shooting
Ross Township Municipal Building shooting
S
1991 Sacramento hostage crisis
2009 Saipan shooting
2015 San Bernardino attack
San Ysidro McDonald’s massacre
2017 Sandy attack
Sandy Hook Elementary School shooting
2013 Santa Monica shooting
Santana High School shooting
2011 Seal Beach shooting
2012 Seattle cafe shooting spree
2006 Seattle Jewish Federation shooting
Sylvia Seegrist
Pablo Antonio Serrano-Vitorino
Michael Silka
2013 South Valley homicides
Southern California Edison shooting
2014 Harris County, Texas shooting
St. Joseph courthouse shooting
Standard Gravure shooting
T
Tacoma Mall shooting
Thurston High School shooting
Trang Dai massacre
Trolley Square shooting
2011 Tucson shooting
2015 Tyrone shooting
U
Umpqua Community College shooting
2010 University of Alabama in Huntsville shooting
University of Texas massacre
University of Texas tower shooting
UPS shooting in San Francisco
V
Chai Vang
Virginia Tech shooting
W
2015 Waco shootout
Waddell, Arizona Buddhist temple shooting
Wah Mee massacre
Wakefield massacre
Washington Navy Yard shooting
2012 Webster, New York shooting
2017 Weis Markets shooting
Wendy’s massacre
Coy Wayne Wesbrook
West Nickel Mines School shooting
Westroads Mall shooting
Wichita Massacre
Wickliffe Middle School shooting
2016 Wilkinsburg shooting
Wisconsin Sikh temple shooting
X
Xerox murders

Source: Wikipedia

Pride and all that remarkable word means

San Diego held its 43rd Pride Celebration recently. Pride is more than acceptance or safety or acknowledgement. Pride is understanding who you, your family and friends are, and shrugging your shoulders, smiling, hugging, and knowing love with strength. The San Diego Pride Parade is one of the nation’s largest with 100,000+ parade attendance and 40,000 music festival attendance (Statistics: San Diego LGBT Pride). Alliant International University, where I teach and research, had a float in the parade. My family was in attendance (Michelle in the Parasol Team and Ryan and Paige taking photos) as well as friends. San Diego was in a party mood.

Here are their thoughts on the parade:

Paige: “I thought the parade was amazing. There were people who dressed up, or just went casual; there were trans, lesbian, gay, bi, queer, questioning and more. It was amazing to see how many people support the LGBTQ+ community and it was an amazing experience and I’ll never forget it!”

Ryan: “The parade was a place where no matter who you love or what you love you are accepted for you. Pride was a place where love was in the air and you could tell. Everyone saying “Hi!” Wanting to talk, to get to know you. It was truly a life changing experience.”

Michelle: “This was my first parade and the level of love and acceptance was unbelievable.”

Alliant Int’l Univ. float                       Michelle & the Parasol Drill Team

     Paige & the rainbow flag            A long and worthwhile day

Starbucks, Lada Gaga, and Born This Way Foundation helping homeless LGBTQ youth, help fight online harassment, fight stigma surrounding mental illness (Photo by Ethan Miller/Getty Images)

What were you thinking about late last night? You know the time, it’s that gray area after we get in bed, turn out the lights and start to drift off but before we go to sleep.  People view the night in so many ways.  For some, the night holds nothing but terror.  For others, it is their favorite time.  A vast amount of songs, poems, stories, plays, and films take place at night or are about night. Many are written at night.  The night inspires creativity, terror, passion, love and warmth.  It’s also that time when many of us, possibly out of a job, are looking at the future with fear.

We still have vestiges of the awe surrounding night. For eons, we viewed the night with fear, with superstition, with dread, with hope.  There were no security lights, no alarms, and no police cars cruising the neighborhood.  Yet hope also existed, because for all the fear that came with night there was still hope that you would wake up – and do so healthy and strong.   

How do you view the night? Personally, I rather enjoy the night.  Long after the sun has slipped below the horizon, after the birds have stopped their songs, the phones stopped alerting, and most of the cars are parked, I’m still awake.  Whether writing, working on-line, reading or, yes, even watching television, I’m still awake with the night. 

One of the many good things about the time after midnight

My best thinking comes late at night.  After the house is quiet and after the crickets have called it a night and are giving their legs a rest, I’m still awake. 

What am I doing still awake? I’m thinking.  After all, there are so many great things to think about.  And yes, there are also other less great things to think about as well, things like when to get a haircut, what color the next car should be, and do we really need two dogs.  But beyond that, there are a few really wonderful things to ponder.  For instance, the other night I got to thinking about the first thing that led to the first higher-level thought.  Okay, maybe that’s not so wonderful, but I thought it was very profound at the time.  And it was interesting, at least to me at 3:30 am.

Scientists who think about these kinds of things (and writers awake late at night) have often thought that fear was what led to speech and higher thought.  For example, one might want, or in fact desperately need, to shout, “Run for your life, elephant stampede!” If you can’t put that kind of thought together you can’t say it. Or reach your natural life span.Perhaps the first thought was something along the lines of, “I’m hungry, and Fred (not his real name) over there has grapes.  If I take them away I’ll get the fruit (and in a few millennia, learn how to make wine).  But then he’ll probably kill me.  Maybe it’s better to just politely ask for some.”  And from that we might have the first rational thought. 

My own thoughts on the first thought

Personally, I think that one of the first thoughts, if not the very first, was nothing more than figuring out how to tie a knot.  I know you’re wondering, “why a knot?  Are you crazy?”  Well, sanity aside, I have an answer. To start with, let’s explore some of the other various possibilities of that “first thought”:

1. Hunger: Starfish get hungry too.  Are they thinking? Not as far as anyone knows.

2. Cold: as in “Hey, I’m cold.”  Now this one is possible, because after this thought one might look for a warm place.  But rats do this too.  Now some people might argue that rats in fact do think – at least enough to work their way out of a maze. But hunger (see above) is enough of a motivator for that as well. 

3. Heat: as in “Whew!” But all animals seek shade, no higher thought required.

4.  Fear: as in “Help, a tiger is after me! A drooling, starving tiger!”  Now this one, like the stampeding elephant we discussed earlier, is a definite possibility.  Fear is one of the great motivators of all time.  And I would probably vote for this one were it not for the fact that other animals get afraid and warn each other of impending problems as well.  Like parakeets.  Enough said.

So that leads us back to the mundane.  And what could be more mundane than tying a knot?  Just look at what early humans could have used knots for:

*  Tying clothes together to make them warmer

*   Making pouches to carry water and food

*  Making bows and arrows to hunt and defend themselves

*  Aiding in delivery of the young and fixing wounds

*   Tying up bad guys so they can’t escape

*     Tethering the family dogs

*  Having something to complain about after marriage was invented (remember that old saying “tying the knot?”).                                           

Those are just seven little reasons that make knowing how to tie a knot so important. There are innumerable others, of course, but you get the point.                                

So as silly and mundane as it sounds, perhaps nothing more serious, intellectual or intellect-developing than tying a knot was responsible for putting humans on the path to higher thought, higher reasoning, and the ability to make wine. 

Usually at night I’m thinking about future columns, the next class I’ll be teaching and the papers to grade, and ways to use social media in business and how it not only reports on, but influences, changing world events. But on that night, it was knot tying; just something to think about one quiet night instead of all the places my mind kept wandering: jobs, wars, housing foreclosures, bank interest rates and all the other ups and downs of a world in flux.

People with disabilities in this nation – and indeed in the world – have many more problems than just simply the disability they are coping with, however difficult life is with a disability.

About 54 million Americans live with a wide array of physical, cognitive and emotional disabilities. Crime victims with disabilities and their families are even less likely to reap the benefits of the criminal justice system.

Sixty-eight percent to 83 percent of women with developmental disabilities will be sexually assaulted in their lifetime, which represents a 50 percent higher rate than the rest of the population. And in many instances, crime victims with disabilities do not have physical access to services. More than the physical access, they also may not have access to representation – either legal or emotional.

Attitudes

Attitudes toward the person with a disability are as important as or more so than physical accessibility. A crime may go unreported for many reasons: mobility or communication barriers, the social or physical isolation of the victim, a victim’s normal feelings of shame and self-blame, ignorance of the justice system or the perpetrator is a family member or primary caregiver.

Reporting agencies often fail to note that the victim had a disability, especially if someone other than the victim reports the crime.  Sometimes that may be the error of the reporter, and at other times it may be that the disability – especially if it is mental – may not be recognized.

Assumptions and prejudice about the reliability of the testimony of victims with disabilities can deny them access to justice in the courts.  How often will a jury believe someone’s testimony when that person has a mental disability?

The vulnerable

Many people with disabling conditions are especially vulnerable to victimization because of their real or perceived inability to fight or to flee, notify others and/or testify about the victimization.  The person committing the crime simply sees that person as helpless.  And there are prisons filled with men and women who commit crimes against the helpless.

Additionally, the victimization may worsen existing health or mental health problems. This may make it even more difficult to seek help, or make it more difficult to be helped if it is sought.

Many offenders are motivated by a desire to obtain control over the victim and measure their potential prey for vulnerabilities.

People with disabilities are also vulnerable to abuse by the very professionals and other caregivers who provide them with services. Approximately 48 percent of the perpetrators of sexual abuse against people with disabilities had gained access to their victims through disability services.

Victimization

It is not just individuals with developmental disabilities who suffer very high rates of victimization. A study of psychiatric inpatients found that 81 percent had been physically or sexually assaulted.

The Colorado Department of Health estimates that upward of 85 percent of women with disabilities are victims of domestic abuse. This compares with, on average, 25 to 50 percent of the general population.  Why the greater amount?  Because of a disabled individual perceived inability to fight back?  Or is it because of the inability of the abusing spouse to take the disability into consideration in the relationship itself?

A crime victim with a disability or a person who becomes disabled due to crime may not have the resources or the physical stamina to cope with the many delays and hurdles that typically occur in the criminal justice system.  First they suffer the crime, and then they have to suffer the problems with the system.

Generally, individuals with disabilities are far more likely to suffer greater problems than their disability conveys upon them.  In other words, the disabilities are far greater than are ever apparent.  And the problems keep growing, money becomes ever scarcer to help the individuals, and society too often looks the other direction.

How is this possible? How can a civilization look away? More than that, how can people look away?

Part of the “looking away” problem may come because of fear, or inability to cope, or just overload. We may become so overloaded with things we should do, things we must do, things we know we need to do, that after a while it becomes easy to look away.

How many times have you looked away as you stop at a light and someone is on the corner or median asking for money or food? How many times have you looked away – or walked past – someone at the entrance to a story you’re going in? How many times do you look away? How many times do I look away?

When will we stop looking away?

All statistics, unless otherwise noted, are from: U.S. Department of Justice, Office for Victims of Crime Bulletin. (2001).

What will you leave?

Think about what is in your desk, your car, your bedroom and bathroom, and your office.  Now think about someone going through all that stuff of yours.  Is there anything you don’t want seen?  What will someone think when they see it?

Imagine if you never walked into your office or house again, what would be found?  What would be found in your wallet or purse?  Your bedside table?  Your car?  Your desk?  I’m not sure, but I think that the things we leave behind, the things we leave because we had no warning or choice in the matter, will probably speak volumes about us.

The things we leave behind

1) Keys (those that fit something and those that no longer do – and haven’t for years)

2) Wallet or purse – what is in your wallet right now, or your purse? An old love note? A faded picture? Credit card receipts? Phone numbers? Directions to a forgotten place? Pictures? Business cards?

3) Books – what books are you leaving?  Are they trashy novels? Good novels? Biographies? Travel books?  What did you read and what is the evidence of it? Or, perhaps the worst thing, aren’t you leaving any books at all?

4) Toiletries – what is in your bathroom cabinet, drawer, or shelf?  A cologne or perfume? Makeup? A deodorant? Does the toothpaste tube still have the imprint from your fingers?  How about medicines? What medicines must be tossed now that they’re no longer needed?

5) Clothes – what clothes do you have hanging in your closet or folded in your dresser?  What’s in there that when someone sees it will make them instantly think of you?  Is anything there that smells slightly of your scent? Does the person removing the clothes gingerly touch them and remember the last time they were worn? Does it bring a tear?

6) Car – what does your car have in it right now?  What is in the trunk or the glove compartment? What will the things say about where you drove last?  What do the gas receipts reveal?  Will the car immediately be sold or kept? Who will drive it?

7) Look around.  See anything with your writing on it?  Any notes?  Shopping lists?  Old cards you’ve saved?  What has your handwriting on it, your signature? Our handwriting can say a great deal about us – what does yours say about you?  Were you methodical? Were you always in a hurry? Were you just sloppy?

8) Food or drinks – what’s in the house that you particularly liked to eat or drink? Is there something that, when anyone tastes it, will immediately think of you?

9) Your special things – these can be anything: your hobby things, your musical instrument, your things from childhood you still drag around with you (have any old trophies, year books, models or dolls?), your tools, games, briefcase.  In other words, these are all the things that simply say “you” without ever saying a word.

10) Memories – what are the memories you leave with those who met you?  Are they happy memories?  Sad ones?  When people think of you do they do so with a smile or a frown?  Hint – if they remember you with a frown it may be time to rethink your life and how you live it

What else is there that retains a bit of you?  It’s possible that our worldly end can come so quickly, without any warning, that when it happens we are unprepared.  More than that, our friends and family are also unprepared.

Don’t leave a mess, don’t leave something that just brings sadness.  Help people smile when they remember you, because they will.  Wouldn’t you rather they have good memories than bad ones?   Walk softly and let the imprint be good.

So here I am, in my office staring out of a window as rain falls. In Southern California lately this qualifies as headline news.  Looking out I realize that I’m sitting in clouds as fog blankets the valley below me and it’s beauty is soft.  Beauty comes in a myriad number of packages of course, wrapped in many guises, played from any number of instruments.

Too often we have trouble recognizing beauty for what it really is when we see it every day.  Hey, a snore can be a beautiful sound if we have been in a silent, lonely bed for too long.                          

A few thoughts on beauty:

Beauty knows no age

Beauty knows no race

Beauty knows no religion

Beauty knows no ability

Beauty knows no color

Beauty is not disabled or handicapped

Beauty knows no gender

Beauty is not determined by job

Beauty is not based on a mirror

There is beauty in us. All of us. Where is the beauty in you?  We sometimes forget to glance inward but hopefully we know the beauty is still there even if it’s changed.  We just have to remember to look.

Shhh. Listen. Hear that faint “woo-hoo” sound? That’s all the moms and dads across the land cheering. School is back in session. Oh sure, some schools retuned earlier but for most students this is the grand back-to-class day.  That sound doesn’t last for long of course. Pretty soon the realization sinks in that the chauffeuring, the homework-helping, the teacher conferences, and the drama of school is headed at us at the speed of light. But for a brief, few moments go ahead. Luxuriate in the thought that you might just have an extra second or two to yourself (and the family pet who will miss them as soon as he wakes up).